it's been 2weeks since i'm unofficially graduated...i'm still lost...

throughout my poly life..much time and effort was given for the club...
never had i thought about my future cos i was too busy with it..
now that it's ending soon...i'm totally lost..
sigh...

what do i really wan to do...what do i really wan in life...
a question i can never answer..

i hope u are feeling better...i hope you are doing fine....i hope i can accompany you everyday..but i can't..and i feel bad..
didn't wan you to work cos i know i'll be alone after that...but i realise i can't be so selfish...i realise i can't always be with you...that' why i was like askin u to start work soon...
i know i've said this to you b4 but ya...say wanna say again.

been feeling useless recently..miss out one impt paper work for my dnd...now end up i cannot draw out money...damn...feel so super disorganised...
after 3 years in poly..president of club for 2years...it was my dream...to be a head of a certain club...it's ambitous...i know...was very happy i got the post...cos it was my dream..
but end up...i saw my weaknesses in there...
i wasn't a capable as i thought i was..
i show no confident...i lack of it...i'm force to fake myself infront of ppl...i realise i wasn't what i thought i am...