i'm starting work tomorrow.
working in raffles hospital..
hope i'll be fine there..
i'm actually dreading to work..though i sick of slacking but working is boring too.
can't believe i am stepping into the working life le..everyday will be work eat sleep..work eat sleep..DAMN...I DUN WAN TO WORK!!!

sigh...most of my frens have already started working for like 2,3 months already..think they kindna used to the life le..now is my turn..oh man..i really dun wan to work..haiz..
bought same stuff for work..need to wear pants..no jean..haiz..so i got to buy shoes to match those pants...bought one myself but mum say not nice..yesterday mum saw the type of shoes she wanted me to buy and we bought it..and she brought me to a tailor shop, made two pants for me..very ex...sigh..
should be feeling happy rite..so founate to have them...but she shouldn't have treat me so nice..cos i'm not worth being treated nice..
dun think i've been a good daugther all this while..and now they treat me so good..it just make me feel so bad...haiz...

got a bite on my leg..dunno what bite..now swollen, pain and itch like mad..
and my knee is getting worst...i only know is my knee area but i dunno where is the actual spot...it hurts when i bend and stand up...shuck!

Hmmm....went for the aus uni open day...applied for 5 uni..eh..just trying...never really talk to my parents bout it...will only know if i got accepted 2,3 months later...kinda long...she will know it earlier i guess....
i know my mindset is wrong, but i only want to go into the same uni with her..she seem so sure bout what she wants, but there is one obstacle she has to pass it..her dad..
if she manage to convince her dad i think she will surly go for it...but what if we got the diff uni..though we applied the same 5 schools..oh man..what if the uni she wants to go is not what i really wants..what should i do...will i survive oversea alone..haiz..
worries never seem to end...sometimes i really wish there is no choices for me to choose from..sigh...

wonder if i have the strength to work ornot...have been slacking for a month u know..sleeping late and working up late..damn..tml start work at 8.30am...wish me luck...

i'm feeling down..what's happening again??