this entry is for u....

always hope we could get back together in the future...that's what keep me strong for the past few weeks...
but my hope is vanished...you are really gone...

i wanted so badly to have you back at that very instance...but i can't...i can't give you much now...cos i dun even have time for myself...you will still be unhappy with me...

i realised i cannot do anything now...
you already moved on..and it seems that you are really determine to cont. that journey..with the gal...
the thought of you treating her nice and good... just like in the past how you treat me.. just hurts me everytime i think about it...i'm selfish..i only want you to be mine..
but i know these are all in the past already...it's over...
i didn't treasure you that time...ya..i admit it..
i'm the one who wan the break up...and ask you to move on and find another gal...but i didn't say those words without any emotion..i said those words with sadness and uncertainty...i still care about you after the break up..that's why i kept asking our friends to look after you and kept asking them how are you?

i didn't you to move on so fast...cos i thought you wont..you will wait...but i was wrong once again..
this news bout you and her really shocked me...i went crazy after knowing it..i scold your frens and pester them..i don't even wanna believed what they said...
but know...i guess you really likes her..and she too..
but, pls rem...bothof you just had a broken relationship...any care and concern give by others can be misunderstood as liking or even love...pls think about it b4 you move any further...
i'm not trying to stop you two from moving on..
but i really hope if you are to find a girl now..she will really love you and not one who just "make use" of you out of loneliness...

really hope u can be happy..i'm sorry i've ended everything just like that...it's really a waste..
i'm sorry...
there is nothing much i can do now but to give you my blessing...
tell you frankly, i'm feeling very sad now...i cried every night for the past few days..i'm just not ready..
i understand it's no use talking about the past now but they are just my thought...
pls take care ..pls take care....