hello...
no mood to blog recently..
so sorry...
but everything is fine...physically...but not emotionally...
my SIP is good..people there are nice and funny...
getting used to my rountine work already..
do manual test...do until the thumb cramp cos need to keep pressing the pipette up and down to do serial dilution...sort sample..label sample...centrifuge..do testing..keep sample...
next week will be busy week cos my lab doing some project with KK hosp...then not enough ppl...so i'm transfered to the biochemistry side for 3days...to VDRL testing..done it at the Immuno section le..so i guess i'll be alright..
my section head very funny...suddenly one day ask my three other frens working there " where is Joanne...i miss her.."...oh my...now my frens kept making fun of me..say she's my god mother...
then today..she sms another immuno collegue..." Fendi (the person name), where is Joanne?"..ha..i dunno what time she mesg Fendi...but it's either i'm outside buying food or finish eating lunch went back to work le..eh..so funny...at first see her very fierce one ...dun dare to talk to her but now..hmm...starting to talk and joke le..
but after a week...we will rotate le..dunno what section i'm going next..
oh ya...next week got 4 Singapore Ploy year 2 students coming for attachment but only for a mth...what are they going to learn man..anyway...hope it will be fun..

i'm sorry..really very sorry..i know it's my fault that everything turn out this way...if i knew this is going to happen...i won't even wanna start and in the end hurt you so much...
but i do have wonderful time with you...never regret being with you..but i'm sorry i've hurt you...
many memories came back recently...where i go..what i do...i can't stop..when i saw couple..i will think even more..think of the past..what we do..where we go..
something is making it worst...just can't stop thinking and blaming myself...why...the only time i'm not thinking is when i'm working...SHUCK...but i'm too tired to work too...

my back is aching..my legs are hurting..my heart is tearing...