oh man, what's wrong with me...
why at this point of time i start thinking about such stuff...kinda too late eh...
after like 5mths...
oh man...hate this feeling....suddenly can't remember what is the diff b4 and after...
arg...i'm losing it...i dun wan to...somehow can't feel anything anymore...just another routine thingy..pls dun tell me all this while i've been lying to myself...i wont be able to take it man...

why am i always worrying about so many other stuff when i myself can't manage my own problems?..
always trying to help others but somehow i've neglected myself and my family...
i'm so sorry...i know i've spent lesser time with u all already but i still care and love u all...i just dunno how to show it out...i'm so so sorry..
pls take care mum...i know your hands are gtting rough and are peeling and in pain..your whole body is aching..i know..it does hurts when i see u like that...but when i'm infront of you..i just smile cos i dunno how to react...
pls take care dad...your health...i suppose the rashes are gone already ya?..what your diet k...thanks for preparing breakfast for me every morning...
pls take care bro...sleep early..hope everything is fine in school ya...thanks for those letters your wrote to me...

pls take care too dear sis...dun think so much k..everythings gonna be fine..hope u know what u're doing too gal...

cried last night...also dunno why i cry..was lying on my bed..then suddenly the sour feeling came again..then tears roll down till i doze off...

maybe after a year or two??...we can become frens again...
for now...maybe we are strangers....but do take care pls...sorry...

*nuMb*