i'm super bored now...sigh...many things to do but i got no mood...haiz...
well, i guess i'll be at home the whole day today..eh..
got lost yesterday when i try to seach for the shops to get my finance forms stamp and sign..
spent bout 13bucks on taxi..eh...lu chi jiu shi lu chi...
went to jalan bersa ($9.30) then to sunshine plaza...should take bus 65 then reach le..but i go and take 23..dotz...end up going segrangoo..ask the bus driver he say i take wrong side..
the road is one way de so i need to like cross the street lar...then again..got lost...and was late le so took taxi again..($4.10)
after sunshine plaza go orchard stn then to crown hotel then to interchange and finally back to school...hopefully the finance can close le man...eh...alright

i guess i'm really going tpsu dnd ba...need to support...eh...$58...i'm not working lo...kept taking $$ from parents..
well i guess i'm quite lucky ba..never go find work but work come and find me...Ms Chew sms again to ask if i'm interested to accept a job in sgh biochem lab...i thought i can't work in sgh le cos of the 2years contract thingy...i dun wanna work for 2years lei..i wanna study de...hmm...hopefully ms chew lobang is no contract de...then i told her i wanna work in micro lab..she say she can give me contacts..that's great rite..haha...
but i still dun feel like working..haha..kk...i shan't be lazy lar...hmm..i just dun wanna go thru interview and ya...adapt to new environment again..

hmmm...damn bored..alone at home...no one to go out with..no $$ too...sigh...
club chalet coming...hope will have fun there...oltc camp coming too...hope things will be alright...
this sat going sentosa..haha...hope can get tanned...sun dad say he cooking crab..haha...good good..i'm craving for seafood sia...
hmm...those are the things that i'm looking forward to to get me move on...eh..

ASc D&D is over...i'm finally feeling relaxed...is it a good sign or a bad one..haha...
well, i will only say that the D&D is alright..ok...i expect more from myself...but at least it was a dream come true...

and yup, i've recieved my result. i got a B for my MP..GPA 3.24...hmm..i'm not sad...but i'm not really happy too...

vincent is in army le..he has started a new journey..hoping he will perform well in there...
Sheewee started work..and we seldom meet up now...but it doesn't mean we dun care for each other...
Sis is starting work soon...20th march...sigh...i told her i'll be fine...i'll take care of myself...but i still cry...looks like i really can't hide anything from you gal..i'm too used to having her around...one more week to play...play hard ya...
going to be an working young adult le...it's sian but...jia you gal...

as for me...still slacking...my event is over...still have 2 more events but i'm not in the organising team...hmm...felt weird..should i let them plan themselve or should i constantly advised them even though they didn't approach me...hmm...i dunno...eh..

i think i seriously need to think about what i wanna do next time le..or even now...i can't seem to ask for $$ from my parents again but the fact is...i still need too...i need $$...i need work...but i'm lazy...i dun wanna work..i dun wan to do rountin work everyday...i dunno what i want...arg...i miss being a student...haiz.

*tell me what should i do...where should i go...*

well, let's talk about happy stuff now...for the pass one month, really wanna thank you gal..and i hope i've been a good sis too....ups or downs...we go through together..the laughter and joy..anger and tears...will always be remembered...i wan this sisterhood to last long long..=)

went sentosa with sis today..wanna get tanned but end up still the same... =(
spent alot...about 80plus i think..haha...but i was thinking...i wont have any chance to spent it after this week..lol..

having a chalet with the club on the 27-29th march...hope it will be fun...this year really too little gathering le...

i wanna go TPSU D&D...but it's $58..and i can't find ppl go...=(

18th March...swimming in the morning...badminton in the afternoon and wedding dinner at night..haha...so happy..

i wan 14,15,16,17,18,19th March to have many many things do...haha...kk...need to sleep le..

night...

it's been 2weeks since i'm unofficially graduated...i'm still lost...

throughout my poly life..much time and effort was given for the club...
never had i thought about my future cos i was too busy with it..
now that it's ending soon...i'm totally lost..
sigh...

what do i really wan to do...what do i really wan in life...
a question i can never answer..

i hope u are feeling better...i hope you are doing fine....i hope i can accompany you everyday..but i can't..and i feel bad..
didn't wan you to work cos i know i'll be alone after that...but i realise i can't be so selfish...i realise i can't always be with you...that' why i was like askin u to start work soon...
i know i've said this to you b4 but ya...say wanna say again.

been feeling useless recently..miss out one impt paper work for my dnd...now end up i cannot draw out money...damn...feel so super disorganised...
after 3 years in poly..president of club for 2years...it was my dream...to be a head of a certain club...it's ambitous...i know...was very happy i got the post...cos it was my dream..
but end up...i saw my weaknesses in there...
i wasn't a capable as i thought i was..
i show no confident...i lack of it...i'm force to fake myself infront of ppl...i realise i wasn't what i thought i am...

Stupid nightmares!!!!
go away!!!
DAmN!!

what to you want from me!!!

ARG!!

life is still not good yet...
have been with sis for the past few days...
i hope u are really feeling better le..it takes time gal...it's ok about the mood swing and etc...u will be fine de...u will get through it de...you have me...you have our dear god...sigh...i just want you to be happy and as day pass by, you will not worry so much le...
i miss ur smile gal...ur true smile...
got alot of things to say, but i suddenly dunno what to say le...
But i'm really glad i was able to be by your side all these while...thank you for allowing me to do so too gal...guess we really understand how important we are to one another now...

i'm still single..going to 7mths...many ups and downs...but i'm alright...there will always be memories in me..that's why i will be affected somehow...but i'm fine...really...
you are going army soon...let just put our broken relationship aside and you go be a man in the army alright..i wont do anything now..i dunno bout the future..but after 7mths..i guess i just dun wish to talk and think about it le...

will be busy with club now...ASc D&D is next friday..so fast...i'm not prepared!!
sigh, i realise how useless and disorganized i am when my frens are not around to remind me about stuff...
after 5mths...i'm really not ready to go back....this event...really very messy...argh!!!
i'm not focus...i miss out many things..i still cannot picture how the whole event is gonna be like...argh...dun like this feeling...

my future, uncertain...it's seem that i can't be bothered bout my future...what am i going to do or work as? Answer: i dunno...can i just slack all the way...-_-'''...haiz...

my relationship with HIM....bad...i lied again and again...what's wrong with me...

*sigh*

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