hi there...sorry for not updating..wasn't feeling good emotionally for the past few weeks...but i'm better now..i guess the difference in the past and now is that i never deny God's power and HIs existence and the fact that He's the only true and living God that have the authority to do miricles..
it's not an overnight revelation..it took me bout 2years to understand that God will still and always be God no matter what happen..figure out throughout the past years...why dun we be at God's side since we know we can't "win" Him if we go against Him..eh..
another lesson i learnt is, when we dont know who Jesus is..life can be so easy..no one to really "control" your life..you can do things you want..right or wrong..maybe to you everything is right as long as you dun go against the law..but God is above the laws...
then after we know who Jesus is..then life start to get in order..He got to tune us back to the right track..and the process can be..or maybe...but for me is a challenging one..a hard one..many ppl thinks that being a Christian has no freedom..well, that's not thru...Freedom is being able to make a right choice..to chose to do the right things in the sight of God...is when you have the authority becos Jesus have given us the Holy spirit...to be freed from our bad habits or bad characters...we are set free from all the bondages..we gain freedom..we gain new life...we gain joy..love and peace in our life...come to think of it...Jesus is just like a traffic light...making sure everything is proper on the road..guiding the cars (our life) and etc.
and if you know who is Jesus but you deny Him..maybe becos of disappointed...frustration..upset that things got bad after becoming a christian..prob seems to be more then before..then you decide to deny Him...decide to go back to who you were in the past so free and easy..thinking that life will be back to "normal"..but that's not true AT ALL...it's my life experience...(that's why i dare to say it's not true)..things will only get worst day by day...
Humans have emotion...when we are down...we are down...can't expect us to be strong suddenly after a day...Jesus wont want us to wear this fake mask before Him...He wants the true us to come before Him..trials and problems dun come to make us fall..it happens to make us grow..to make us strong..to remind us that we got to rely on God..
when there is up..there will be down...when there is down..there will be up..
it's only when there are down...then we will appreciate the times when we are high up there...
jia you ba guys..jia you ba....Joanne =)...

Hi there,
I've uploaded some photos taken during the mission trip..it's dated 25th june..i actually did a draft on the 25th but didn't finish it...so now it's completed..pls scroll down to that post for the pics..

life have been stagnant for me..be it in reality or spiritually...
but at least i'm working now..not really working thou..cos it's only like 2hour per day..in the evening...didn't know it's in the evening at first..kinda sian after knowing it cos it's only in the evening when i can meet my sis for dinner and it's when my parents are back from work..so in the day i'll still be alone and at night i'll be working.. =(
but i shan't complain so much cos this job came to me...i didn't search for it..and it pays well too..

can't seem to be still..can't seem to quiet down...can't really worship...and it shucks..
how will one feel if other's dun appreciate your care and concern but instead says that ur're interfering...have i gone overboard?..i really dun think so...
"there's nothing wrong with my life"...is this a familiar phase and tots humans have...are you sure there's nothing wrong or you're just running away from ur life?...putting unsolved issues behind and moving forward..moving forward is right but what about the unsolved issues?...against what standards and measures, yours or God's, are you using to say that your life is right and you are doing the right things?...

i dun know what to say and do..i tried but it backfired...i dunno why it hurts so much..but it's just so disappointing...maybe becos the care and concern is really from my heart and not that i'm judging..or critizing..maybe i'm just sick of the attitudes..maybe maybe maybe...ha..

many ppl seems to be alright...on the surface but they aren't really fine inside...and i know that..but what can i do then?...i dunno how to encourage..i dunno how to help...teach me dear Lord...
u know what oh Lord...i really hope they will cont. to rely and trust u...thou probs and obstacles are ahead but if they are still focusing on you..i'll be glad already...thou i can't do anything to help them..i know you can...cos nothing is impossible for you..nothing is too big or too small for you..so my dear friends...rem to slow down your pace and spend time with Jesus...He will give you the strenght when u are tired or weak...He will renew and refresh u...He will guide and protect you..He will embrace and comfort you..HE will be your rock..jia you ba!!

Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes, it's leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruits. Jermiah 17:18