hi there...sorry for not updating..wasn't feeling good emotionally for the past few weeks...but i'm better now..i guess the difference in the past and now is that i never deny God's power and HIs existence and the fact that He's the only true and living God that have the authority to do miricles..
it's not an overnight revelation..it took me bout 2years to understand that God will still and always be God no matter what happen..figure out throughout the past years...why dun we be at God's side since we know we can't "win" Him if we go against Him..eh..
another lesson i learnt is, when we dont know who Jesus is..life can be so easy..no one to really "control" your life..you can do things you want..right or wrong..maybe to you everything is right as long as you dun go against the law..but God is above the laws...
then after we know who Jesus is..then life start to get in order..He got to tune us back to the right track..and the process can be..or maybe...but for me is a challenging one..a hard one..many ppl thinks that being a Christian has no freedom..well, that's not thru...Freedom is being able to make a right choice..to chose to do the right things in the sight of God...is when you have the authority becos Jesus have given us the Holy spirit...to be freed from our bad habits or bad characters...we are set free from all the bondages..we gain freedom..we gain new life...we gain joy..love and peace in our life...come to think of it...Jesus is just like a traffic light...making sure everything is proper on the road..guiding the cars (our life) and etc.
and if you know who is Jesus but you deny Him..maybe becos of disappointed...frustration..upset that things got bad after becoming a christian..prob seems to be more then before..then you decide to deny Him...decide to go back to who you were in the past so free and easy..thinking that life will be back to "normal"..but that's not true AT ALL...it's my life experience...(that's why i dare to say it's not true)..things will only get worst day by day...
Humans have emotion...when we are down...we are down...can't expect us to be strong suddenly after a day...Jesus wont want us to wear this fake mask before Him...He wants the true us to come before Him..trials and problems dun come to make us fall..it happens to make us grow..to make us strong..to remind us that we got to rely on God..
when there is up..there will be down...when there is down..there will be up..
it's only when there are down...then we will appreciate the times when we are high up there...
jia you ba guys..jia you ba....Joanne =)...

Hi there,
I've uploaded some photos taken during the mission trip..it's dated 25th june..i actually did a draft on the 25th but didn't finish it...so now it's completed..pls scroll down to that post for the pics..

life have been stagnant for me..be it in reality or spiritually...
but at least i'm working now..not really working thou..cos it's only like 2hour per day..in the evening...didn't know it's in the evening at first..kinda sian after knowing it cos it's only in the evening when i can meet my sis for dinner and it's when my parents are back from work..so in the day i'll still be alone and at night i'll be working.. =(
but i shan't complain so much cos this job came to me...i didn't search for it..and it pays well too..

can't seem to be still..can't seem to quiet down...can't really worship...and it shucks..
how will one feel if other's dun appreciate your care and concern but instead says that ur're interfering...have i gone overboard?..i really dun think so...
"there's nothing wrong with my life"...is this a familiar phase and tots humans have...are you sure there's nothing wrong or you're just running away from ur life?...putting unsolved issues behind and moving forward..moving forward is right but what about the unsolved issues?...against what standards and measures, yours or God's, are you using to say that your life is right and you are doing the right things?...

i dun know what to say and do..i tried but it backfired...i dunno why it hurts so much..but it's just so disappointing...maybe becos the care and concern is really from my heart and not that i'm judging..or critizing..maybe i'm just sick of the attitudes..maybe maybe maybe...ha..

many ppl seems to be alright...on the surface but they aren't really fine inside...and i know that..but what can i do then?...i dunno how to encourage..i dunno how to help...teach me dear Lord...
u know what oh Lord...i really hope they will cont. to rely and trust u...thou probs and obstacles are ahead but if they are still focusing on you..i'll be glad already...thou i can't do anything to help them..i know you can...cos nothing is impossible for you..nothing is too big or too small for you..so my dear friends...rem to slow down your pace and spend time with Jesus...He will give you the strenght when u are tired or weak...He will renew and refresh u...He will guide and protect you..He will embrace and comfort you..HE will be your rock..jia you ba!!

Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes, it's leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruits. Jermiah 17:18

One of the song sang by the baka youth during their sunday service..
it was a song that touch many of our hearts...
and this shall be a song to remind myself and the rest how great is His love....How He is willing to walk with us through our bad times..how He is willing to embrace us..do not give up...do not give up...
i've uploaded the song into my playlist too...song number 54...

有一天
有一天 你若觉得失去勇气，
有一天你若真的想放弃。
有一天你若感觉没人爱你，
有一天好像走到谷底。

那一天你要振作你的心情，
那一天你要珍惜你自己。
那一天不要忘记有人爱你，
那一天不要轻易说放弃。

这个世界真有一位上帝，
他爱你，他愿意帮助你。
茫茫人海，虽然寂寞，
他爱能温暖一切了我。
这个世界真有一位上帝，
他的双手渴望紧紧拥抱你。
慢慢长夜陪你走过，他爱你，
伴你一生持久。

this was suppose to be an entry for the pictures taken during the mission trip...but it wont be for now...
it's been so long since i cried so hard....
it's been so long since i had that sour feeling in me...the sourness that starts from the heart and it just affect the rest of my body...
the giant that is sleeping inside me...i tot it was gone...it's been a year plus...never did i realise it wasn't gone...it's just sleeping...
i forget how it felt..but now i remembered...
i once said b4 it's time for me to bless others..to encourage and strengthen them...but i doubt i can...
i tot i can do it with God's grace...but i realise it's hard...it's funny that only yesterday my ex-lecturer from TP asked if i'm a strong christian now..and i answered yes...but now...i think i'm not...
why did i always turns the table around...feels like i'm trying to run away...i am suppose to encourage and be there..but instead...i took pity of myself and started turning the whole situation around...how then will the other party be strong again if he or she has to encourage me instead...i should be strong...to stand firm in the gap and pray for them..why then did i fall..this shouldn't be the way...
i asked God to take away all that He has done for me...for i'm not strong enough to be the one helping others...a year of freedom but what have i done ...who have i really helped and blessed..
the aches just can't go away...
don't ask me about this entry...this entry shouldn't even exist.....
though i'm like that now...i'm not saying God is fake....HE is still the same yesterday..today..and forever...but i disallow myself to be with Him...for this period of time...
I know He is still a Great God...Faithful and Just...
i tot i can handle..just pray and lift it up to God...but it's so hard...i'm not that strong afterall...
i'm not going to give up God...but for now....let me be...

I'm sorry i'm such a failure...instead of encouraging and being there for you...i myself fell too...i really dun wan to fall...i want to be a blessing to others and not a burden...i want to help you...i want to help the guys...but i'm not able to...pls dun blame yourself...i have to learn to fall and stand up again...same goes to you....dun let all these beat you down...no weapons form against us will prosper for our God is with us...yes...He may seems far now...becos of all the probs.....but we both know He's just beside us...dun give up gal...

the scariest thing is not bout falling down...but it's bout not getting up after u fall...it's hard to do it alone...let God help you..be under His wings..He will shield and protect you...
currently listening to song 48. on my playlist...because your loving kindness is..how i wish..i can sing this song now...

On the way to Chiangmai..looking out from the plane..

The monster truck tt conquer the mountains!!..lOl

Inside the Jeep..can u see the road ahead??..i doubt so..

My friends having a great time behind the truck..ha..
Mountains..mountains..and more mountains...
The road up the mountains..so far so good..at least the road are still made of concrete..

Cristal with the HuayHok children =)




Praying for the adults..The lady is wearing her traditional costume..How well they present themselves when comes to church service..thou it's just for an hour or two..their respect and honour for God is something we must learn.







Their classrooms..










Our sleeping area..

Us with some of the HuayHok village family..










On our way down the Baka village..told u le..God is such an amazing painter...







The church cum hostel for the youth

The open area where we perform our skit...


Getting ready for the skit..


One of the scene..Ivan as Jesus is on the way to calvary with Jacky and Robin as roman soliders beating and mocking him..





Paul (left) with uncle Thomas (Right). Paul is our driver from thailand. He is also a Christian.Really wanna thank him so much for helping us throughout..especially when our trucks got stuck in the mud..Paul must be an angel send by God... =)










The church in Baka village..sunday service..







See how they just dance before God during worship..



Fruitful Vine church with Pastor Lee, his wife and their baby boy...
Fruitful vine youth with the youth from Baka..

Hi there, I'm back from mission trip!
Emmanuel - God With Us...indeed..He is with us all the time..Let me share with u guys how God sees us thru this trip..*Ps. it will be a super long entry!!*

Day 1
one of my church member actually forgot to check his passport...only got 5mths validity..oh man...blur him..ha...early in the morning at 7am...we gathered tgt in the airport and started praying...pray tt God will forgive our carelessness and that the singapore and thailand authority will allow him to pass..and yup!...Both singapore and thailand gave the green light.. =)


after reaching thailand at bout 10.30am..we hop on to our jeeps..there's 2 4by4 wheel drive jeep and 2 2by4 wheel drive car...squeeze in all our luggages into one of the car becos that's the only one that have shelter on the back..hmm..the journey there was long man..we stop for lunch at bout 2plus?...can't really rem...then we're off to pick pastor Lee and he led us to the village...at the top of the mountains...it started to rain heavily..and some of us got worried becos the road up the mountains aren't made of cement...but mud..red mud..i was kinda alright..maybe i like adventure ba..eh..but the reason must be God's peace and assurance...after the pour...guess what...we saw a rainbow...thou it was quite faint...but i smile..rainbow...God's convenant..His promise..somehow..i know...God will be with us throughout..


the roads were really scary..bumpy and wet...some of our vehicle can't drive up the steep mud road due to the uneven and wet mud...there was once the jeep infront of mine slided backwards..ha...no joke...we were quite worried for the cars at our back..the 2by4 car with all our luggages..it must have added much weight to it...Pastor Lee, being more experience, have to walk down the mountain to drive it up for us...it was a sign of relieved when we saw all the 4vehicles arrived...i dunno about the rest..but while waiting..i prayed that God will bring them up safe and sound..that His angels will watch over and carried them up..and again...God did it...


after the long and challenging journey finally we reach HuayHok village...i must tell you...i almost teared...not due to the car journey but the warm welcome the children (12yr and below) have given to us...they just cheered and clapped their hands upon seeing us!...so heart-warming..

had a quick dinner and then the night service..they waited for us to start the service..our pastor preach for awhile and we started praying for the adults and the children there...

Again i thank God for giving me the courage to pray for the children..maybe becos i dunno them that's why i dare to pray..i dunno..i prayed in chinese..haha..after that the children was brought to another room..sis cristal told them story from the bible and our adults made balloon for them...

the children were so adorable..so simple..so lovely...

Day 2

i didn't really sleep in the night..thanks to the mosquito and the rooster..haha...the view from the mountain top is just magnificant..God is such a wonderful painter i must say...imagine there were clouds below where you are...and you are just among the clouds..so beautiful...the people over there are really nice..they cooked so much for us...i believe what they have provided us for a meal is enough for them for maybe 3 meals?..althought they have not much to give but all these are enough...their hospitality..come from within their heart...

after breakfast we cont. our journey downhill to another village...Baka village..it's actually a youth hostel..the children from huayhok..after finishing their primary school education will have to travel downhill for their secondary school education..this Youth hostel is for them to stay so that their journey will be shorten..

it was about 3plus pm and most of the youth wont around..there's another church organization from singapore there also..they were there to teach them chinese..

we had our lunch there and we were brought to a resort...pastor Lee booked it for us...we rest for awhile after that...prepared our logistic for our skit...

had dinner at the hostel then we proceed to an old school where the night service will be held..

the service started with some songs led by pastor lee's wife and it's our skit..

Thank God...everything went really well...our pastor said there's annointing in our skit..i thank God for that...except for the song we sang that went out of tune..ha...everything was great..then there is preaching and praying...many ppl responded to the altar call...then we went to pray for the youth and the children...and guess what...God timing is always just right...right after we said our closing prayer..it started to rain..just in time to look for shelter..haha..

the rain got heavy and light now and then...and our drivers(church members) decided to drive down the 4vehicle that we have parked at the hostel..the journey is only about 8mins?..but we waited for at least an hour...all of us wondered what happen...we were thinking coming down the mountain should be easiler then going up..until we managed to contact one of our church member...he told us 2car got struck in the mud..

oh man..no joke again..going downhill..again we started praying...finally one of the driver arrived and he told us what happen..He's the first car to drive down...at the first gear..without pressing the accelerator..the car skidded down..he got to brake and stay still if not the car will have skidded more. another vehicle at the back have to tie a rope to the car to pull it up..but it got struck also..it was raining heavily then and all of them have to put rocks and bricks on the mud in order for the car to travel down the right path..after hearing these..yes...we prayed...we can do nothing there...but just to pray for God's hands to protect them..

at last..all of them arrived...wet and muddy all over...tired and exhausted...their shoe broke too..

we were all so thankful to our dear Lord...i must say it's a prayerful 2days for me...so many time we couldn't do or help..but just pray and believe...


Day3
it's our last day at Baka village..it's a sunday..and so we join the youth for their sunday service..they were so open when it comes to praise and worship..they clap..they dance...they aren't bothered bout who's around them...with all their heart, soul and mind..they praise and worship the Lord.

after lunch...we're off to chiangmai...we reached the hotel at bout 9plus pm...ate our "dinner" at bout 10plus...eh..then walk round the night market for awhile and back to the hotel..

the hotel was good..4stars..how i wish i can bring the bed home..haha..

Day4
it's our recreation day...we went to sit elephant ride..ox ride..and rafting..it was actually a very slow and peaceful ride along the river...but i fell into the river..haha..silly me..got all wet...lucky the river was shallow..i swam to the side off the raft and my friend, paul pulled me up..i was the joke of the day..everyone was like "annoucning to everyone la...lol

then we went to a resturant which sells all kinds of tibits and sharkfin and birdnest...i didn't eat them..just bought some tibits..

lastly we went to a shop which sells honey..all kind of honey..

sometime happened which almost made me cried..i was sad...or maybe disappointed...i remembered saying i'm going to the toilet..but now i can't rem if i said to a particular person or just say it out to...everybody..or maybe...nobody...eh..maybe they didn't hear me..and all left the shop..to the bus..off they go...i was panic when i can't see them in the shop..plus i didn't recognise the bus...went in and out of the shop a few times until i saw familiar ppl on a bus which is slowing down..and yes..they were doing headcount after starting off..then realise i was missing..well..
sat behind the bus...controlling my tears...it's over..can't blame anyone..maybe i should have just told the organizer...like i said..it's over..i still love all of you guys..=)

Day5
last day...had breakfast and off we go...to the airport..reached singapore at bout 4pm...

all in all...i bought a fake puma shoe..a 44L backpack for myself..a skirt for sis..and DFS wine for my family...

Overall, it's a wonderful experience...wish we could stay at the villages longer thou...pray that God will cont. to revive the churches..and the people..and for the leaders there to cont. this will of God...be their strength...give them hope and a passion for soul...a passion for God...

hey there, so sorry...was busy and tired recently...i wonder where my energy go to already..
i've recieved this mail and it wrote about Friends..it goes like this...

They Love you but they are not your Lover
They care for you but they are not from your family
They are ready to share your pain but they are not in your blood relation
True Friend scold you like a DAD
Care like a Mum
Tease like a sister
Irritates like a brother and
Finally love you more then your lover

in a way quite true...=)

My church children camp is over. This was my first children camp with my church..i must say it's a different experience...Being the big sister there...wasn't easy man...ha...but eveything when well and smooth..=)

There are a few things i wanna thank God for..
firstly, some of the kids and the facilitators including myself fell ill on 2nd night...but the next morning...we had all recovered...i thank God becos He's our healer...i prayed...i told God i can't be sick becos this camp is not over and i have a mission trip to go...so i have to be healthy so that i will be able to bless the people over at thailand...thank god becos for those who know me...i'm quite a weakling la...i need some time to recover if i fall ill...had fever that night...38plus degree...but recovered the next day le.. =)

thank God too becos the kids enjoyed themselves...and i know they too have learnt from the lessons bout God Creation and how God knows and see who we really are and what we are thinking...only God knows...
I pray as this Kids cont. to grow older..they will rem the lessons taught to them and that they will be able to discern and to chose the right path...

Another thing i wanna thank God will be my results..it's out.... i got 2A, 2A- and 2 B+...thank god for giving me this peace throughout the exam period...helping me to concentrate and to do my best...and i give thanks and glory to the Lord...

I'll be heading to Thailand from the 13th to 17th...to reach out to the people up in the villages...we'll be having some activities with the children...a skit will be perform by us..and our pastor will be speaking too...really pray that the Holy Spirit will work strongly..prepare the hearts of the people there..and also..prepare our hearts...to be bold and courageous...to be use by God to bring blessings and to claim souls for Jesus...

Certainly, i'm going to miss my dear gal...so sad she together with 2 other youth can't join us this time...but i still hope that the angels of the Lord will watch over them..to be their strength..their comfort and to protect them while we are away...

Dear gal, i'll miss you...pls do take care of yourself while we are away alright..i know you will be lonely...but rem..God is always with you...maybe it can be a good time for you to once again spend time with Him...take a break..and rest...be still and worship the Lord...
Dear...we'll be back soon...anything happen call up my parents k...

The next post will be after my mission trip...Brothers and sisters out there...do cont. to pray for us...till then...take care =)

WWJD- What Would Jesus Do.....

why am i feeling like that?..
Do i or do i not...
If i do not...then why do i feel like tt?....
If i do..then why do i feel like tt?...

hAha...just a random entry today...
the above is titled : Do I...
Lol..

A poem i read from guitar4christ website:

It is only a tiny rosebud,
A flower of God's design;
But i cannot unfold the petals
With these clumsy hands of mine.
The secret of unfolding flowers
Is not known to such as I
GOD opens this flower so sweetly,
When in my hands they fade and die.
If I cannot unfold a rosebud,
This flower of God's design,
Then how can I think I have wisdom
To unfold this life of mine?
So I'll trust in Him for His leading
Each moment of everyday.
I will look to him for His guidance
Each step of the pilgrim way.
The pathway that lies before me,
Only my Heavenly Father Knows.
I'll trust Him to unfold the moments,
Just as He unfolds the rose.

It gets tiring when u dunno what's ahead of you...
you are lost and confused...
but God knows...
and that's why we say
Our Life is in you Lord...
Our Strength is in you Lord...
Our Hope is in you Lord...

Trust God and let Him unfolds the beauty in our life...

i'm going thru some emotional roller coaster now...and it's funny becos i'm not the one..as in the thing that is affecting me is not from me...but from others...ok..maybe just a little is from me..
i often wonder why am i so easily affected by others emotions....even thru the tv dramas...if there's any actor in there crying or feeling sad...98%....i'll be tearing too..though it's just a show...it's just a character...it affects me...therefore, if it's going to be the people around me going thru hard times..and i know it..and feel it...that's it...especially my loves ones...
it just pains me to see them suffering...and i here doing ok...i want to help but i dun know what to do?...but i know of a every powerful "tool"...and that is...prayer...it's powerful...becos thru prayers...your petition is brought before God...yes..our all mighty God...just tt we'll not the one who decides when our prayer will be answered..that's the challenging part i guess...But you know what..God knows what's best for each and anyone of us..we got to seek after Him..and all the amazing things that HE has plans for us will be reveal to us..one by one..step by step...
going thru trials..thou it's painful but if you were to go thru it...it will be an amazing experience...
In James 1:2-4 it says,
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
Press on my friends...
Dun give up...
becos our Father God is with us all the time...
jia you....

Hi there, how's everyone?...i'm doing fine...preparing some stuff at home...i have yet found a job but i've applied and send in my resume to IBN for a month of attachment...could be a good experience for me...if i manage to finish my preparation, maybe next week i'll look for a job..maybe.lol...i'm a lazy person when comes to work..ha..
oh well, i started reading the new biligual bible i bought...told myself to brush up my chinese...i dunno how long i will last...as in you now...reading His word everyday...it'll be fine if i only read the english version...but nah...i have to read the chinese version too...so many words i forget how to read already la...really pray God will help me thru..to give me a good memory to rem the chinese charactors...to understand and gain new revelation...-thou it's been awhile since i gain any..ha..pray that i will be determine enough to at least finish the new testament...
the journey of a Christian life can have ups and downs...that's part and parcel of our growth...being able to strike a balance is a challenge...busy...tired...lazy...common reasons..how then can we maintain this relationship with our Father God?... sometimes we just have to put away EVERYTHING or should i say to lift up all our burdens and work to Him...let God renew and strenghten us...let God be our BOSS.....if man were to cont. striving on with their own strenght and flesh..one day..you will lose it all...you will break down...you will lose the intimacy with God too..it's hard...i didn't say it's easy...but we have to always kept that in mind..and do it...
Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead...i bet it's another challenging thing to do..
but God clearly tells us that in Philippian 3.13...a past memory..a past event..a past emotion..can stop one from moving ahead...can even prevent or hinder or bondage one from getting out of the misery...i experience it before and each day is a misery...but i realise if i were to really surrender them to God and asked Him to help me take it away...I can be free once again...free from bondages...free from hurts...but now, it's whether you want and allow God to come and intervene ornot?..or you rather let it linger in your mind and you trying to find a way out or and answer yourself...there's a choice to make...chose wisely pls...dun let the past haunt you..

i knew somethings gonna happen...just waiting for u to say but u prefer to type it out..well..eh...but u know clearly in your heart..it's over...

Phil 3.13-14 Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Welcome to those people visiting my blog the first time!
well, i've display my blog add on my msn nick..it took me awhile to post it up though..becos there were some stuff that kinda stop me from posting it up...
my intention was to use my blog as a way to reach out to people...especially my friends...christian or non chrisitan..to testify about God and to encourage people..but i was thinking whether to put up my old enteries on the blog ornot...i have a past that wasn't good...i believed most of the people have a past that are not pleasent too...but one thing we got to know is...it doesn't matter how other ppl sees u...becos at the end of the day...God is the one you will meet...and most importantly...God doesn't care who you are..what you have done before...God still will accept u and call u His children if you were to come before Him...humble yourself...repent...and let God take control of your life...
i've experience His faithfulness and mercy..it is indeed amazing...many a times i disappoint God, i scold God...i blame God for everything...i even said i dun wanna be a christian anymore...but God did not give up on me...each time i fell...He was there to hold me up...
If you were to read my old enteries and compare it with the newer ones...i believe they have certainly change alot...I thank God for His teaching and guidance...how i manage to put away my past but to focus on God and look to the future...this transformation wouldn't have happened without God intervene..
Though my this little transformation may not be as impactful as a drug addict converting to a christian and now walking in the right path..(i've watch a dvd about this..it's really true..God changed his life)..but i believe God will touch different ppl differently.
i hope my little life transformation can be a testimony of how wonderful God is...if you are willing to take a step of faith to come before God...i can be sure that your life will never be the same again..
i give thanks to God...may all the glory and honour be to our God...Amen!

Thank you Lord! Praise you oh Lord!...indeed, our God is Great. He is almighty..Friends out there may be thinking why are we (christians) always saying thank you lord or praise you lord...i must say it's becos we are really thankful for all the things He has done for us..for ALL of us..be it christian or non believers...His sacrificial LOve is uncomparable..His amazing work is wonderful...i can only stand in awe to worship and thank Him..
i have a few things to share today..Firstly, once again...i want to thank God...becos He have given me the courage and boldness to pray for my mum..infront of her..saying the prayer aloud..some may think what's the big deal..but for me...it's a BIG deal..i find it harder to pray for people who are really close to me..my loved onces basically...but i finally did it...and i will cont. to do it..pray that God will cont. to increase this boldness and also preservance to pray for my mum till she is completely heal from her rashes..
next is the testimony from my beloved sista..
our God amazing hands is moving in her relatives members..though non believers..but they actually asked her and her dad to pray for their grandma who was sick...a group of people who used to discriminate our God..but now, they actually want them to pray for their mother...i can only thank God..His ways are indeed higher then ours..and His thoughts is beyond us...we do not know what will happen next...will they start to want to know more about Jesus?...will they and grandma accept Jesus as their Lord?..we do not know...but we will cont. to pray and intercede..
One thing that man will always expect is that their prayer will be answer IMMEDIATLY....i cannot deny that YEs, there are prayers that are answered right at that instance...miricules can happened at that very moment..it is thru God's grace and mercy that these happened...but we cannot always expect that when you pray..you want God to answer you immediatly..we cannot think that if our prayer is not answered, it means our God is not real..that's totally wrong...it is according to God's timing...in His time, He will make all things good..the answer to our prayer can be a YES or NO or Wait..we have to cont. to wait upon the Lord..trust and establish a intimate relationship with God..focus on God and not on our prob..then we will be able to see His works in us..
No matter how BIG our prob is..it will never change the fact and that our GOD is real..HE is a living God..God is with us ALL the time..it's whether we allow God to come into our life ornot..
Today is mothers' day..or parents' day..bro and me cooked dinner for our parents...glad things went smoothly...=)...
well, i shall stop here today..good night guys!

hi there, it has been a week plus since my last paper eh..well, last week was fun. Went to sentosa and the zoo!!...LOL...the sun was so terribly hot la. can't even play volleyball without jumping up and down..haha...oh ya...and at last, i went to 85market and the newly opened swensen at Tampines Mall. Yumyum!!
just last week, after my last paper. felt this sudden heaviness. has been reading people's blog, seeing things happening to people, their r/s and the world..doubt, worries and burdens seem to be pouring on me.
in the past, it used to be people praying and helping me...now that i'm strong once again, i really hope to do the same for others. to help them, to bless them, to encourage and strengthen them.
and God reminded me to lift up all these burdens to Him..to draw strength from Him becos i alone can't handle all these..and i Thank God during prayer vigil..HE helped me to pour out my burdens and to just be still in His presence..allow Him to once again renew and strengthen me.
Has been praying for strength, wisdom, creativity, courage and boldness.
Strength and wisdom to help and pray for others..creativity to think of games and script.
was a little hurt just now...but i dunno who's right or wrong..maybe it's not a matter of right or wrong..i guess it's just different ideas...different ways of doing things. Well, dunno if i should put my point across now..well well..i need to cont. to draw strength from the Lord

"The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom i take refuge.
He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
I call to the Lord, who is worthy of praise, and i am saved from my enemies."
Psalm 18:1-3

hI there!
i'm taking a break from my revision..one more paper next tuesday..so ya..kinda having the holiday mood now..haha..okok..
first of all, exam will ok..felt the difference this sem...there are worries and anxiousness but there is God's peace..and that is the most important thing..becos peace is the root to rejoicing...many may think why do we need peace?..how can we possibly have peace and joy when so many things are happening around us?..our family...our school...our workplace..the society and etc..well...you can have peace and joy if u trust in the Lord..and this joy comes from knowing that our God is always with us no matter in what situation..u know there is someone to hold on you when you fall...having confident in God give us the peace..having confident in yourself to deal with the situation around you is not enough becos Man are limited..there is only so much we can do..But God is so big...He's omnipotent, omniscent, omnipresent...why carry all this burdens on yourself when
God says in mattew 11:28 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and i will give you rest.
again i must emphasize...HE has lay down this gift infront of you..you got to go get it..
Well...they are sill many more things that i wanna say..but i got to study now..
till then..take care guys..

Hey guys!
i've change my blogskin...haha...used the template provided by blogger..i've added some new features..
hope u guys like the Christian songs..and ya..my stupid face there..loved the rainbow photo too..i can still rem when it was taken..15/6/07..
the rainbow meant alot to me..rainbow signifies God's covenant with us..

It says in the bible, Genesis 9:12-17 (NIV),
And God said, " This is the sign of the covenant i am making between me and you and every living creature with you, a covenant for all generations to come; i have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. Whenever i bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, i will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life. Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, i will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth."
So God said to Noah, "This is the sign of the covenant i have established between me and all life on the earth."

How wonderful God is =)
I better get some rest now..first paper on the 16th of April..ends on the 29th of April..
will post again soon..

2 weeks more to my final exam..am i worried?..
i think i am...but somehow i know i dun have to be afraid..because Jesus is in my life..He gives me strength...gives me hope..and He holds my future...and i'll do my best..for Him..
been a christian for bout 3yrs...i'm glad i've made this choice..
being a christian wasn't easy at first cos i'm use to leading my own life...doing the things i wan...bearing the consequences myself..
Now that i gave my life to Jesus...things change...and i'm transformed..and i thank God for that..
Each time i think about His Love, i can also say thank you..for you loved us so much that you've died for us on the cross WHEN we are still sinners..how great is your love..nothing is greater then your love..
i thank God once again...for giving me another chance to serve Him and His ppl, and to glorify His name...and i ask for more faith..more courage and boldness..and i really hope i wont let it go again..
i pray for those who are lost..those who think that their life is in a mess...those who are aimless..those who are suffering..those who are disappointed..sad..or u feel that you are useless...or you feel that you need to be loved..come to Jesus..becos He will heal you..He will set your path straight..He will guide you..teach you and most importantly..He will love you...this love is unconditional and unlimited..He doesn't expect you to "pay back"..all He wants is you to reconcile back with Him..to come back to His kingdom..He is the creator and we are His creation...It's like a Father..waiting for His children to come back..and He will cont. to wait..until the day you anknowledge Him as your saviour...your God..
Just take a moment to think bout it..
this wonderful gift is right infront of you...and it's up to you whether you want to recieve it..
take some time to ponder ya..
i'll stop here now..
take care my friends..
with love..

feeling funny...feeling weird...everything that is happening around me...even in my dreams are affecting me greatly..
things are not really doing well for me..
i can't explain..
i guess many little things are piling together creating one big piece of shit..
anyway...i saw alot of babies today..
so cute you know...how i wish i can have one now..i'm serious..
told my mum " two years later i'll give you one grandchild"...eh..yea..i know..crazy..
nvm...
i'm out.

Happy New Year everyone!
it's the first day of the Lunar New Year.
at home...as usual...went to our old neighbour house..
all the children grow so much already...all the uncles and aunties still doing good.
Glad to see that..but somehow, i feel that the grandma wasn't happy.
dunno why i feel that way...
gonna watch movie with my family later...it's our routin very year since my grandma past away.. tml gonna stay at home to do report..hopefully i can finish it by tml..haha...no mood no mood..
sat morning maybe going to visit my sec. school teacher..then going over to parent's friend chalet..see how ba...if i manage to finish my report...hmm...sun..church and going around to visit the youth family...then new year is over...ha... .
he asked, why dun i give him a chance....it's not bout him i guess...said b4...i'm not ready..a relationship needs two people to clap...if i'm not ready to sacrify time for it..i dun think this relationship will work..i can't be expecting the other partner to give in to me all the time ya..eh..
oh ya...topic for new year visiting is changing man...
last time ppl used to ask " how's school?...how's your result?...which poly or jc are you going to?"
now, ppl ask " so, where's your bf...why dun have yet...when marry.."...haha...
ok...going to try to start on my report now...
tc peep!

Blessed are those who trust in the Lord.

hey there..it's been a year yea..Well..just feel bored now. Not because i've got nothing to do, but i'm just too lazy to do. Maybe cos CYN is coming..holiday mood is here!!..haha.
Alright...life for the past one year was...interesting..many changes..but i believe these changes are necessary...
studying at NTU now...year 1 student...how sucky is that..lol..student life for me is totally different now compared to poly..haha..school..study...home...that's all..no events..no meeting..no activities..no wonder i feel bored..haha..but i guess the joanne from poly have changed..hope it's for the good..
still single now...somehow forget what's the feeling of being in relationship..i guess as more resposibilities come into our life..making decision seems to be harder..i'm not ready..thats the reason i gave..is that the true reason?...i think so..ha..whatever...
I can't say it didn't affect me..it did actually..but i chose to end it as soon as possible..felt sad..at the same time...i'm glad too....hope ur're coping well...
oh ya...i'm going for a short get-away to bintan with my dear sis!!..haha..it's our first time going oversea alone..hope it will be a fruitful one..but after the break...she's gonna start her hectic schooling and working again...and i...study study study...so bored right..oh man..what can i do sia..ha...