down with a sore throat now...i'm losing my voice..lol...been a long time since i'm sick...
i like to be sick..got excuse dun need to work..lol..kk...

going to be alone at home now..mum going out..she took leave from work cos now holiday..talking bout this...kinda sad cos mum may not be able to go for my graduation ceremony...so hard to get leave meh...graduation lei...she say i graduate from Uni then she go..also dunno i will go uni ornot...sigh...nvm...it's over...

it's been 3 years in tp...it's been 3 years in club...seeing the club grow makes me happy...seeing the club getting well known in school now make me proud..but all this wouldn't has happen without tears and hardwork...i hope i've make the ex committee proud too..
i guess i've been doing things to let other ppl see all this while..and not for myself..is that wrong?..hmmm...

for those who wish to run the committee again...i'm glad to hear that..i'm glad to know that throughout the 2years...u guys have also build up this passion like i had..its the passion that make me wanna run again...i hope this passion will also strengthen you guys...do remember..we need new blood too k...eh...all the best guys...i'm retiring soon...lol...

thanks for the encouragment too...i'll miss u guys...

melt my harden heart...i'm asking u..
make me cry...i'm begging u...

have i mention i've been dreaming for the past few weeks...almost everyday...it's getting irritating..every morning i'll be super tired..
last time was nightmare...now is unrealistic dreams..oh man...can't i just have a good sleep...

got emo in the afternoon...suddenly thought of my ex again...maybe cos i got nothing to do then i start to think of many many things again...things that are kept at the back of my brain flashes back..

how are u now? ...sigh...that's the only question i can ask now i guess...it's just so funny...when things change...it really change..crap..what am i talking about...

do u think people appreciate the things i've done?...do u think people know how much i've put in..not that i wan the whole world to know about it...but...when is the last time people praised me?..
no one actually told me i've chose the right path..no one actually said i've done a good job for running the club as a pres again...people joke around bout my joanne disease...i dun mind..but it somehow change the way people look at me...i dunno..i think i'm thinking too much...i'm going crazy soon...

i guess the only thing i'm good at now is to cry...everyday i cry...
felt so lost...i know i need to find a job SOON...
i know i can't cont. to slack anymore..i know all that...so what's the point of saying but not doing anything..
that's me..i have no energy to do ANYTHING now..
everyday i feel useless...that is enough to spoil my day..that is enough to make me cry..that is enough to pull me alway from the real world...
why is this happening to me..
once again..i felt lonely..i felt lost..

i need u now...where are u..it works both way but why are u so slow in replying...i lose hope in u..i no longer find strenght and comfort...everytime i think of u...i cry..everytime i see other people believing in u..i cry..how can i be them..when will i experience u once again..my heart is harden..i can't feel anything now..i am a lost sheep..where is my shepherd..

i got a feeling i'll piss someone off very soon..i hope this wont happen..if it happen...i really dun see where am i still here...i should be gone..gone long ago..gone far far away..

hello ...dun worry...i'm still alive...
just finish my 5 day straight camp..tiring tiring..
i'm still jobless here...partly cos i didnt look for it..
still busy with club stuff..
was wondering what will happen to me after i step down...i'll be totally lost lar..
lol...well...having headache now...can't cont le
will update soon..

hello ...dun worry...i'm still alive...
just finish my 5 day straight camp..tiring tiring..
i'm still jobless here...partly cos i didnt look for it..
still busy with club stuff..
was wondering what will happen to me after i step down...i'll be totally lost lar..
lol...well...having headache now...can't cont le
will update soon..