i'm starting work tomorrow.
working in raffles hospital..
hope i'll be fine there..
i'm actually dreading to work..though i sick of slacking but working is boring too.
can't believe i am stepping into the working life le..everyday will be work eat sleep..work eat sleep..DAMN...I DUN WAN TO WORK!!!

sigh...most of my frens have already started working for like 2,3 months already..think they kindna used to the life le..now is my turn..oh man..i really dun wan to work..haiz..
bought same stuff for work..need to wear pants..no jean..haiz..so i got to buy shoes to match those pants...bought one myself but mum say not nice..yesterday mum saw the type of shoes she wanted me to buy and we bought it..and she brought me to a tailor shop, made two pants for me..very ex...sigh..
should be feeling happy rite..so founate to have them...but she shouldn't have treat me so nice..cos i'm not worth being treated nice..
dun think i've been a good daugther all this while..and now they treat me so good..it just make me feel so bad...haiz...

got a bite on my leg..dunno what bite..now swollen, pain and itch like mad..
and my knee is getting worst...i only know is my knee area but i dunno where is the actual spot...it hurts when i bend and stand up...shuck!

Hmmm....went for the aus uni open day...applied for 5 uni..eh..just trying...never really talk to my parents bout it...will only know if i got accepted 2,3 months later...kinda long...she will know it earlier i guess....
i know my mindset is wrong, but i only want to go into the same uni with her..she seem so sure bout what she wants, but there is one obstacle she has to pass it..her dad..
if she manage to convince her dad i think she will surly go for it...but what if we got the diff uni..though we applied the same 5 schools..oh man..what if the uni she wants to go is not what i really wants..what should i do...will i survive oversea alone..haiz..
worries never seem to end...sometimes i really wish there is no choices for me to choose from..sigh...

wonder if i have the strength to work ornot...have been slacking for a month u know..sleeping late and working up late..damn..tml start work at 8.30am...wish me luck...

i'm feeling down..what's happening again??

woah!...i've been MIA for bout a month already eh..lol
so sorry guys...
I'm back to update bout my life.

i'm now searching for a job and i went for an interview already.
high chance of getting in but i hesitate for awhile.
it wasn't what i expected it to be.
i was offered many jobs....seriously..
first was to be a TSO back in TP..second was a med tech in sgh biochem lab..third was back at my attachment area..fourth was in cgh histo lab..fifth was in sgh histo lab..sixth was a part time job at HSA..seventh was a med tech in raffles hospital..eight was a research/clinical ass at gleneagles med ctr.

VERY VEry Very LUCKY and Blessed right...yea..i think so too..i really wanna thank all my lecturers and friends who kept informing me about the lobangs..i didn't search for them..all the above was told to me by people.
but sometimes no choice maybe the best choice dun you think so...
of the above 8 choices..i send up my resume for 4 of them..didn't apply for 2 of it cos i'm still involve in school activies..

ppl say i very choosy...am i?...maybe a little..i admit it...for now i just wish i could work in a hospital..not a private lab..i wanna try working in a hospital environment..not becos i dun like my attachment place..i just wanna experience different environment...that's why i turn my down my supervior twice..but now..If only the lab is nearer to my place..if only i know what am i going to expect..i'll surly go back to my attachment place.
i want to learn many things..learn many more stuff..and i think my attachment area can help me fulfilled it..but..haiz..i'm confused..but i can't go on like that anymore..
i hope i'm wrong about it...

since young, i am very lucky..i got into the sec school i want..i got into the poly and course i want. All my first choice..until now i still thought i will get whatever i want. but i was proven wrong..
i realised i'm not in control of anything at all..haha..but it's ok..i learnt..and will move on..