hi there...sorry for not updating..wasn't feeling good emotionally for the past few weeks...but i'm better now..i guess the difference in the past and now is that i never deny God's power and HIs existence and the fact that He's the only true and living God that have the authority to do miricles..
it's not an overnight revelation..it took me bout 2years to understand that God will still and always be God no matter what happen..figure out throughout the past years...why dun we be at God's side since we know we can't "win" Him if we go against Him..eh..
another lesson i learnt is, when we dont know who Jesus is..life can be so easy..no one to really "control" your life..you can do things you want..right or wrong..maybe to you everything is right as long as you dun go against the law..but God is above the laws...
then after we know who Jesus is..then life start to get in order..He got to tune us back to the right track..and the process can be..or maybe...but for me is a challenging one..a hard one..many ppl thinks that being a Christian has no freedom..well, that's not thru...Freedom is being able to make a right choice..to chose to do the right things in the sight of God...is when you have the authority becos Jesus have given us the Holy spirit...to be freed from our bad habits or bad characters...we are set free from all the bondages..we gain freedom..we gain new life...we gain joy..love and peace in our life...come to think of it...Jesus is just like a traffic light...making sure everything is proper on the road..guiding the cars (our life) and etc.
and if you know who is Jesus but you deny Him..maybe becos of disappointed...frustration..upset that things got bad after becoming a christian..prob seems to be more then before..then you decide to deny Him...decide to go back to who you were in the past so free and easy..thinking that life will be back to "normal"..but that's not true AT ALL...it's my life experience...(that's why i dare to say it's not true)..things will only get worst day by day...
Humans have emotion...when we are down...we are down...can't expect us to be strong suddenly after a day...Jesus wont want us to wear this fake mask before Him...He wants the true us to come before Him..trials and problems dun come to make us fall..it happens to make us grow..to make us strong..to remind us that we got to rely on God..
when there is up..there will be down...when there is down..there will be up..
it's only when there are down...then we will appreciate the times when we are high up there...
jia you ba guys..jia you ba....Joanne =)...