life have been stagnant for me..be it in reality or spiritually...
but at least i'm working now..not really working thou..cos it's only like 2hour per day..in the evening...didn't know it's in the evening at first..kinda sian after knowing it cos it's only in the evening when i can meet my sis for dinner and it's when my parents are back from work..so in the day i'll still be alone and at night i'll be working.. =(
but i shan't complain so much cos this job came to me...i didn't search for it..and it pays well too..

can't seem to be still..can't seem to quiet down...can't really worship...and it shucks..
how will one feel if other's dun appreciate your care and concern but instead says that ur're interfering...have i gone overboard?..i really dun think so...
"there's nothing wrong with my life"...is this a familiar phase and tots humans have...are you sure there's nothing wrong or you're just running away from ur life?...putting unsolved issues behind and moving forward..moving forward is right but what about the unsolved issues?...against what standards and measures, yours or God's, are you using to say that your life is right and you are doing the right things?...

i dun know what to say and do..i tried but it backfired...i dunno why it hurts so much..but it's just so disappointing...maybe becos the care and concern is really from my heart and not that i'm judging..or critizing..maybe i'm just sick of the attitudes..maybe maybe maybe...ha..

many ppl seems to be alright...on the surface but they aren't really fine inside...and i know that..but what can i do then?...i dunno how to encourage..i dunno how to help...teach me dear Lord...
u know what oh Lord...i really hope they will cont. to rely and trust u...thou probs and obstacles are ahead but if they are still focusing on you..i'll be glad already...thou i can't do anything to help them..i know you can...cos nothing is impossible for you..nothing is too big or too small for you..so my dear friends...rem to slow down your pace and spend time with Jesus...He will give you the strenght when u are tired or weak...He will renew and refresh u...He will guide and protect you..He will embrace and comfort you..HE will be your rock..jia you ba!!

Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes, it's leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruits. Jermiah 17:18