having headache AGAIN...for the past THREE nights...oh SHIT....haiz...
was tearing when i was playing the guitar this morning...suddenly rem...eh..haiz..

how i wish they are growing....only a few people are putting in their effort...their time and strength to get it running...how to function only with a few ppl...
why such things will happen?
is it becos i have been neglecting them?...it is becos i have not been a good president...
people aren't working as a team man...where has the bonding gone to...

i just feel so disappointed...with the club..the people...and myself...only certain ppl are putting in effort...and it has been tough on them...why you guys dun think about how they are coping...they are also busy and tired....but they are still trying hard...put yourself in their shoe guys...
i dun really know what's going on now...i really lost touch le...you guys may have your reasons for not turning up...but everyone has his or her own things to do too...where has the committment gone too....
i admit i'm like neglecting the club too..i am at fault..i am at fault...it's just so hard to handle club and work at the same time....what i can do is to hear from diff ppl now and then...
the club is different now...of cos i know it's different...if you find something is wrong...then do something to change it back...or even better...haiz...what wrong with everyone.....what wrong with me....i feel so helpless lar...so useless...i can't function alone...

i am doubting the happniess i felt for the past weeks?
i felt like crying now...i'm tired...