my First Day of CNY :
went to church..
flooded the church...dunno why..but i guess there are things that are still bothering me...
projects?...club?...family?...hmmm...i dun feel any saddness actually...just so tired..about everything...feeling numb i guess...
my family...kinda feel that i've distanced from them..not that they have neglected me...they still love me alot...but i'm the one who is distancing away from them...i dun like to share my prob with them...they know it...not becos of their nagging...but just feel that it wont make any different ba...my prob just add into their worries..like to keep to myself..eh...talk lesser to them now...bleah...

hmm..after church went home..sleep for awhile...aunt came to eat lunch..thanks to my BROTHER and my two little cousins...they SHOCK me up lar...haha..
well....seeing the two kids brightens up my day..there are so cute lo...so pretty and handsome..haha...and they can sing lo...=)...
after they went back..my family played majong...4ppl..just nice...lost 7bucks..haha..
then went to watch movie...I Not Stupid Too...typical Jack Neo show...cry and laugh and cry and laugh...=)
then went home...
End of First Day..
It's so different compared to last year (when i'm still attached)..and two years back(when my grandma is still around)...haiz...boring CNY...

Today:
wake up take family photo..then went to visit my late grandma...then my step grandma..then met emily..watch dvd at her house..then now..back home...alone..haha...
i kinda make myself look like a loner eh...haiz..dunno lar...just wanna be alone..tired of meeting ppl... smiling here and there when actually i dun feel like smiling at all....sian...
LIfe is no good now...arGh..!!
Tml meeting ex club members go visiting...let's hope i will really enjoy myself..and not trying to fake a smile out...haiz...i'm so tired...i feel like crying again...but i can't...so xin ku...argh!!